Insignificant

I FEEL "SOFA-KING" INSIGNIFICANT RIGHT NOW. (quote the lovely Dyanne)

Life's just shit, you know? Excuse my ribald language in this post but I'm not exactly feeling chipper today. It started out like crap and its still going like crap. I'm tired of all the fcuking bullshit I have to put up with here at home. Sometimes I wish I could stay at school longer or something, but honestly, who likes staying at school? I want to get a job, you know, anything to delay having to come home. And I get paid for it, it would all end well if only life were so bloody romanticized like we all freaking wish it to be. Too bad teachers have shoved me into to freaking many things to give me any bloody time to have a job, let alone A LIFE. They've just squeezed all my creative juices and inspiration out of me that I'm not producing anything of worthy quality anymore. It's fcuking pissing me off. Here at home I feel so bloody insignificant. I only feel worth something at school because people think I'm intelligent. Here at home I'm the annoying bystander who's not worth shit, and only purpose is to clean, cook and remind everyone when their bloody TV show is on, because they effing remember the bloody channel even though they've been watching the damn show for four years. I'm even told to fcuking stay out of arguments that were started because of me. I mean WTF? An argument started today because I needed the computer (its this whole complicated thing that's just more bull) then when I try to resolve the situation by telling people I'm fine they turn their attention away from yelling at each other to yelling at me "STAY OUT OF IT!" I mean wtf? Hello? I fcuking unintentionally started the bloody argument and now all of a sudden, its none of my effing business? Yeah that tells me I'm about as significant as an ant in the whole damn universe. So I retreat to my room to escape it all and wish desperately for my mp3 player if it were only not so effing out of battery. Then suddenly I hear that this whole situation is my own bloody fault because I was watching movies earlier. WTF IF I WANNA FRIGGING WATCH A MOVIE TO ESCAPE WHAT MY LIFE IS REALLY LIKE THEN I'LL GO AHEAD DO AS I DAMN WANT TO!! I'LL DO MY EFFING HOMEOWRK WHEN I WANT TO! Because gyprock (got nfi about how its spelled) is completely hollow and you can hear ever damn word issuiong from their mouths and I'm sofa-king tired of all this bullshit and arguing in this house.

If only I could escape. I wish I had some tree house high in the sky or something...