When I'm sad, I stop being sad and decide to be AWESOME instead.

True story.

I really don't care who reads this. Most likely no-one will. But I don't care, I'm doing this for me, so I have something to look to in case I feel down and lonely. It is a place I can look for, for strength. So if you do read this, I hope in some way, you can benefit from my journey.

I am going to change my life. I am going to take control of my mind. I am going to take control of who I am and not allow the demons that I fought in the past, force their way into my heart once more.

I thought about about making a new blog, starting anew and leaving all this mess behind me. It sounds like a good idea, however, I decided that my origins are a part of me, the darkness and everything I experienced in the past are a part of me and they stay a part of me, it is simply my choice to overcome them. The darkness I have experienced is a part of what will make me stronger today. I wish I could be more eloquent, as eloquent as I used to be, however unfortunately I am out practice. So, this is coming from the heart.

This blog will become anew, as I will become anew.

But I know I can't do it alone, I know I have my loved ones. I know I have my God. We can't do this without him. I know now, that this year, having found LOVE and the greatest happiness I have ever known (a blessing from the Lord, I assure you) that the enemy wishes to undo that. I am steadily becoming stronger in my faith, but as a result, I know that I am being attacked by a force that wishes to undo me. It's a force that's telling me that I don't deserve this, that I deserve the darkness. We don't deserve that. We are God's greatest creations. We are made in God's image. We are powerful, we can overcome. In the Lord's name we can overcome this evil. I can overcome it. Everyday will be a battle, everyday will be a challenge. But I will choose to live my day, loving and forgiving, becoming a disciple of Christ.

With that said, a wise person once said to me: A day without love is a day wasted. So go out there and leave a legacy of love.

Step 1 for today: CHANGE THE TITLE OF THIS BLOG! IT'S SO CYNICAL! I used to think it was hilarious (still do) but we need to breathe positivty and fill that cup to the Brim. I'd like to thank Kandee Johnson for inspiring me to do this. She's an amazing woman and a true blessing.