SHIT. FUCK. SHIT. CRAP. DAMN.
I don't need this, I really don't need this. I have a tonne of Maths homework to complete, I have heaps of English to do. I can't do this. I can't - how do I tell him that I don't feel the same way??
I mean he went to all the trouble, and, well, seriously I don't want to be slack. However I do know it's even more cruel to lead him on. GAH. I'M SO BUSY I DON'T NEED THIS.
GAWD. I was expecting something. A textm a phone call, I mean I was HIGHLY doubting it, but I wouldn't put it past him. HOWEVER. THE SHEER AUDACITY TO SEND... I am so mortified that I can't even articulate it.
Flattered? Yes. Happy? NO.
Man.... i cant do this.
Why couldn't it be Asian Adonis? WHY? I Talked to him the other day, and I like his personality, and he is such a talented, decent good-looking guy. Why couldn't this be from him?
I STROKED HIS HAIR. IT WAS ALL I IMAGINED IT TO BE.
Anyway, I digress. I just started really liking AA again.
And now I have to tell hip-boy that feelings don't reciprocate. I refuse to say 'reject' that's a bit mean.
Why couldn't the reciprocation of feelings occur within the people you like?
GAH. STRESSFUL. I DON'T WANT TO DWELL ON THIS ANY FURTHER!!
SOMA! I NEED MY SOMA!
Urgh. Brave New World English references.
until next time -
deeh.
Gosh. Horrified. Fuck. Sorry.
Happy singles-awareness day! (Valentine's Day)
xox
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